all revved up

i switched accounts for a fresh start & a non-laxtonian name

please be so kind as to add: very_lame

thanks all!

xo jennifer marie

i finally got my glasses & have graduated into a full-blown fashionable four-eyes. pradapradaprada.

having 8:30am classes is destroying my semester. i am not a morning person. i have missed 2 anatomy classes & 3 drawing workshops in a ROW. asghh. i am so bad at real life. and so good at drawing! i'm getting pee'd offf.

i had a good time in buffalo though. matt&i had a mobile bike/skate date to the art gallery and park. we rented grizzly man & kung-fu hustle. they were both real good. i took the 11:35 bus back last night & got in at a sleepy 2am.

today i visited olivia for a sandwich & went out to visit my dad. it was his 55th birthday yesterday. i got him a john lee hooker cd & a book of bukowski poems.

i am uber-busy now with school, life, and friends. it's hard to fit it all in and it's so fantastic.

i got my computer yesterday. no glasses yet. i wanted my glasses more, i think. i am upset that i am stuck with contact lenses.

i had a good time being a loner at the cancer bats show last night. i like that i'm not that girl that needs to be around 100 people all the time anymore. i really don't need anyone but me, my mom and my aspirations.

the bus to buffalo leaves at 8o'clock. i will be back on sunday.

i don't understand how anyone could bear to see these things destroyed.

it's 4:13am & i have class in 4 hours & 15 minutes. i'm so happy i can't get to sleep because i am going to die tomorrow.

fucking life

after all my plans fell through for friday night i was bumming on telling matt not to come up this weekend. everything turned around last night, though.

i went to hoibak's show about halfway through and even then it seemed too overwhelming. i found phil & we had some drinks & got stoned in his car with his little sister. i watched a death for every sin for old times' sake & it was funny.RANT:i don't go to hardcore shows anymore and with a big fest like that i realized why. most hardcore bands are so disconnected from punk rock in any way (music, message, image, attitude) that it is a huge jockfest. dancing is punching random kids as hard as you can at the rim of the pit? the kids all look like wiggers and follow a pretty standard uniform: flex-fit baseball caps with straight brims (cocked to the side), toughguy tshirt, maybe some reference to your city's baseball team, and expensive nike shoes. it's embarassing to see. why do all the suburban white hc kids want to look like ballers so bad? what happened to the popularity of new balance shoes?

anyway, marc's house party with fucked up was punk as fuck and a really good time. i spent my entire night hanging out with different people. phil, andrew from halifax, the girl i talk with at odyssey, and even spencer joined in on rating the people who walked by us in the hallway. i also spent a fair amount of time making dirty limericks on the refridgerator with ewan and oz's roommate. i watched FU play from the windowsill in the living room and my knuckles are bruised from punching the ceiling so hard.

james was supposed to meet us at dee's afterwards but never showed up. food fights and general drunken revelry ensued and i got home early. i was still drunk when i woke up so i slept until 4pm and stood up my dad for our movie date. i have to go say goodbye to ariella at a pub later.

fun night. i like fun.

i oredered prada glasses today. they are beautiful.

next thursday i'm getting a brand new imac g5.

i'm so blessed that my family loves me so much but i'm becoming what i hate in other people... pampered by my family. i guess after 10 or so years of struggle it's justified, but i hope i don't come off as spoiled. erg. i'm feeling guilty about my possessions...

( who likes reading stuff, anyway... )

lucky dragon 2am chinese food made me eat flesh for the first time in 5 years. i was gagging with every successive bite i took of fake meat afterwards & wanted to puke & cry in disgust. it was the worst feeling & i'm never going back there. stupid chineses.

in good news, my gramps got awarded a disability pension from canada. he fought in doubleya-doubleya two for five years & was only paid one thousand dollars. he is getting a cheque this week for $33000, with a large cheque every month now. my family never gets news like that & i'm ecstatic for him & my mom.

school is exciting me. i want my arm finished already. i am planning on buying prada glasses & i hate that they're brand name cause they're uber pricey. fashion. hmph. i am ridiculously in love with my nineteen year old silly boyfriend. we have a psychic connection and we keep getting freaked out. his astral projections affect my consciousness. you wouldn't understand.

also - hostel is a terrible movie.

evil half-sleeve with bats
spending too much money
good boy-times
busy with school already
seeing hostel tonight, as high as possible

TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend(s): natasha tulk
First Screen Name: iris6207
First Pet: ribbon
First Piercing: septum
First Crush: jason priestly?
First CD: eye mother earth?
First Car: no
First Love: andrew young
First Stuffed Animal: charlie the lion

NINE LASTS
Last Alcoholic Beverage: shot of johnnie walker
Last Car Ride: in buffalo
Last Movie Seen: american graffiti was on tv
Last Phone Call: i keep trying to call matt but his line is eternally busy
Last CD Played: green day - bullet in a bible
Last Bubble Bath: i dont know
Last Time You Cried: i dont know


EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS

Have you ever dated one of your best friends: no
Have you ever been arrested: no
Have you ever skinny dipped: yes
Have you ever been on TV: yes
Have you ever kissed someone & regreted it: ohyeah
Have you ever skipped school: yeah
Have you ever done something illegal?: yah

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. grey champion hoodie with a hole in the middle
2. pink angels shirt
3. earrings
4. the chuck taylors never before seen & loved by the world
5. h&m jeans that keep getting baggier
6. pot leaf undies
7. socks

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY

1. went to school at 830am
2. shopped for hours
3. bumped into random people
4. got stood up by boys
5. discovered chimichurri
6. smoked pot

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER

1. matthew
2. getting new stuff
3. having money
4. eating
5. exciting prospects

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO
1. matt
2. my mom
3. james
4. alan

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: hot
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. become a successful artist
2. live in california and europe

ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. waiting so long to start my life

endless joy

a night out with the girls!

+ switchstance premiere at adrift with kerry & allison
+ getting drunk in 20 minutes
+ jenny's cafe & bar in the market is a goldmine of a dive
+ old homeless guys bought us rounds as soon as we got in
+ toothless 70 yr old dropping a dimebag of good weed on the table for us
+ dancing briefly at the boat
+ almost passing out & having to wolf down a bag of chips to survive
+ total pigout at dee's with allison & making it an early night

- finding out my exboyfriend is dating my exbest friend & neither bothered to inform me (lame!)

( recent photographs )

this movie blew our minds. you have to see this in order to realize how completely insignificant the human race is compared to the forces of nature & the history of the planet. it is entirely awe-inspiring and devastating. i love nature.


the human race makes me so mad but this film is so good. nature is better than people.


i finally saw this for the first time. comic book movies work best when the director understands graphic novels, &rodriguez does.


another nature flick. this works best to watch while very stoned. bugs are nifty.


audrey hepburn is the perfect woman. $8 at wal-mart, i couldn't go wrong.

my stomach is always upset at me.
i just had a 2 hour nap.
i bought a digital camera.
went to school at 8:30am this morning to find there were no classes. tomorrow.
went to the science centre yesterday. babies suck.
saw the drawing for my evil armpiece & whoa is it evil.
partied with angelune's dog & my dog for nye. major puppy parties.

today was my first shop-till-you-drop day. i was alone & focused. here is a list of how much having money rules:


refurbished handset for way cheap


new chucks - at a suggested discount


i love green day

&an awesome b&w nyc skyline pencil case

time go to home & play
& eat! i'm about to pass out... whoaaa. . dizzy

i have a lot to say but im about to shit my pants so i gotta go

im still alive tho

bye

& my hair looks nice... but very hipster. i'm going to have to make up for my hipster appearances with some extra punkrock attitude. it's all about balance.

i totally woke up at 9:30 in the morning today. alright, me! mornings are difficult in the cave, especially considering this new bout of insomnia i'm facing. wtf.

i don't have much cha-ching left & i still have to buy canvases & nice paper for cards that i'm making. i had to convince myself not to buy this today so i would have some money left:


xmas present, anyone?

also, i cannot wait to go to matt's cabin in the catskills in 2 weeks. romance + nature = my cup o'tea.

visiting my old neighbourhood yesterday for a doctor's appointment, i noticed not much has changed. my highschool seems a little ghettoer, a little blacker. i still hate buses and poor neighbourhoods. there seem to be more retarded people in poor neighbourhoods, but then again rich people probably just lock theirs up in their basements or drown them at birth.

i was disappointed to see that Westside Mall doesn't look like the Dawn of the Dead mall anymore. it's all stucco and Home Depot now. the brown 70s aesthetic is gone.

dr. frydrych told me that 1 in 10 girls have the clap & don't know it. i guess i'll find out if i'm #1 or not soon. otherwise i'm fucking perfectly healthy. i would have thought that after 5 years of being a vegan with little regard for nutrition i'd be aenemic to the max. looks like my body agrees with my diet afterall.

after all that business i ended up having an accidental dinner date with colohan & 2 dutch men from amsterdam.

i got a big cheque in the mail today, with $20 left in my account. guess there is some good in having a mother on disability insurance. praise the governmental lords for cutting me a break - and a cheque.

ps, watch this:


&all the other miyazaki films you can find. le sigh.